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i'm SO FUCKING UPSET JUST FOR THOSE THINGS THAT I SAW PROBABLY IN THE WORST MOMENT EVER! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? ALWAYS THAT FUCKING THING.. IT ALWAYS COMES DOWN TO THAT TIME.. AND OBVIOUSLY NOBODY GETS THAT I'M STILL SUFFERING AND THAT THERE'S NO WAY I'M GONNA RECOVER FROM IT WITHOUT TAKING PILLS OR TRYING SUICIDE! I LOVE TO SAY IT.

SO. I KNOW I'M OBSESSED AND I SHOULDN'T, BUT THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO AND NOBODY IS DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT OTHER THAN TALKING AND TALKING AND SAYING BEAUTIFUL THINGS THAT ARE HARD TO FOLLOW!
WHY, IF I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT, NOW THINGS SHOULD CHANGE? WHY????????? THERE'S NO FUCKING REASON FOR  DO NOT OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES AND REALIZE THAT I'M THE BEST ONE! FUCK! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
I HATE WHOEVER'S HAPPY! JUST CAUSE I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL BECAUSE OF THAT. I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK. I'M SO FUCKING CONFUSED!! BUT SINCE SUFFERING AROUSES * I BETTER RECOVER AND FORGET, AND DISAPPEAR FOR A LITTLE WHILE... BUT I ALWAYS SAY THAT AND IT NEVER HAPPENS! IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED!! AND WHAT I DESIRE IT WON'T HAPPEN

AND I DON'T WANT ANYBODY TO ASK ME WHAT THIS FUCKING THING MEANS